Saturday, June 9, 2012

Scary but amazing

I'm sitting here watching the US men's gymnastics championship on television and I find myself amazed.  These guys are phenomenal in so many ways: strength, courage, skill, focus, the list can go on.  My son is a competitive gymnast, going into his 3rd year in competition, this year he begins training as a level 7.  He   got moved up from level 5 last year after regionals and is training hard for the competitive season that will all too soon begin.

As I watch these young men compete, I find myself wondering, whether or not Jac ever makes it to this level, if I am prepared for him to do such things?  I don't doubt his courage, I doubt my own.  Watching these guys, you have the same sense of fear and trepidation that grips you at the precipice of a tall roller coaster.  I'm not sure I could bring myself to look if he was doing some of the flips and spins they they have to do at national levels.  The good news is that what I have the ability to do has nothing to do with what he can do.  His future will be decided by God's will for him, I think that's for the best.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Don't Wait

In the past month 3 men who I have a 2 degrees-of-separation connection with have died.  All seemingly in perfect health, all relatively young (49, 52, 43), and all very suddenly.  My co-worker's brother-in law, died of a sudden stroke, leaving a wife and a couple of teen-aged children.  A charter member of the motorcycle group I am a member of died of a massive heart attack, leaving a couple of young daughters and a wife.  A friend of one of the teachers with whom I work died in a car accident, leaving a home, pets, parents, and many friends.

I went to the doctor this week for my yearly poke and prod.  Everything is just great.  I actually lost a couple of pounds this year, kept my cholesterol down, and avoided spending time in the doc's office for anything this year.  No I am not afraid of becoming number 4, in fact I am not at all concerned about it.  I wrote this for another reason.  All these men died suddenly, without the chance to say anything to their loved ones from a hospital bed... boom! it was just over, for all of them.  They had no chance for do-overs that day, no chance to right a wrong with their wife or reopen a slammed door with their kid; their last words were just that.

Live life that way, like what ever you are saying ARE your last words to that person.  Don't assume that you're going to get a chance to make it right.... you probably won't.