Saturday, April 2, 2011

What?!

Sometimes I find myself wondering WHAT!?

What did I do?
What did I say?
(What didn't I do or say?)
What just happened?
What was that all about?
What has me so ripped?
What do I do next?
What is the reason this is happening?
What am I going to do about this?
What unseen thing is going on that I haven't caught onto yet?
What?

In the past 3 weeks, every plan that I have made has gone "kaput."  I mean everything from visiting my father to riding my bike to work yesterday.  Big plans and little plans have been dashed.  I planned for my end of year review at school only to forget about it right up to when my boss showed up with me looking like a deer in headlights.  I planned to visit an motorcycle accident victim 2 times only to be "broomed" out by the nurses caring for him.  I think I need to give up on planning, it doesn't seem to be working for me.  The thing is, most of the plans, all of the plans that I've made were made for other people, not for me.  I could almost understand things going sour if I was making plans in a self centered way, but I'm not... really.

So now that I have planned to not make plans, will the same thing continue to happen, or will the phenomenon disappear like a tooth ache does as soon as you're on the way to the dentist.  Ugh!

Phil 4:12  I have learned to be content in all situations, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  (gotta remember this dude.)

Peace...  and Joy